Our 4th wedding anniversary

Our 4th wedding anniversary

Assalamualaikum,
Yesterday marks our 4th year being a husband and wife. We have had so many ups and downs. Lots of fights, lots of laughter, lots of tears, lots of apologies, lots of forgiveness, lots of chances, lots of guidance and lots of LOVE to add for each days that passed .
The truth is, which I sometimes denied when we were fighting, I will cry, a lot, if you die. You have been a very good husband, a good father. We strive for greatness, perfection, but,a good one will suffice. You are good enough for me. I don’t need a Mr Perfect 100%. You have given me love and attention more than I deserve since a long time ago. I sometimes wonder what have I done right to deserve you. You will be truly missed if you go first, so I always pray that I will die first so I won’t have to bear the pain of losing you.
As a wife, even after 4 years, I’ve always felt that I’ve never been good enough to your expectations. I  always felt that other girls are greater than me. That explains my jealousy, me always being suspicious of you and all my back to back questioning to you. I’ve always regret doing that but sometimes I just can’t deny my own instinct. *sigh*
Nowadays, I felt like I have always been a huge disappointment to you. Lots of times. Some days, I am able to pick myself back up, but others I felt like dying. I just don’t have the energy to do so anymore. But worry not, I am a fighter right? I’ll fight, for my rights, for my husband’s rights till I die. InsyaAllah.. May Allah always give me the strength to do so, for you and for us.
I love you my husband, my only love. Happy Anniversary suami..

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